Walking Side by Side

He said, "You are the love of my life...so long as you'll have me. My parents have guided me to independence, but you'll be walking with me for the rest of my life." 

Can you believe that? I felt...I don't know...I mean he's never really the type to say something so romantic. He is my boyfriend but when he tells me he cares about me it's never to this extent. We had a really deep conversation and he told me he loves me greatly. I responded with the same words but I reminded him not to put me ahead of his family. He questioned this and was upset because this whole time he's put me above his family. He loves me and focuses on me more. I felt so horrible, so disrespectful. I haven't been keeping him from his family, they after all live in a different state from us at the moment. So we're in Maryland...and they're in Minnesota...(because of their jobs). He's staying here to finish schooling. So he and I got into a bit of an argument over what he had said. He shouldn't say something like that, he'll hurt his family's feelings and he'll sound disrespectful. 

I realized that people love others differently. For me..he is at the same level as my family because that's as high as it can get. Whereas he is able to put me above them...I feel awful...I feel like I should do the same but I can't. Perhaps I do place him first for certain things but I can't say that he's above my family...Blah

I love him though and I feel so happy and lucky that he can say such a thing. I know I'm hard to deal with because I get outrageously jealous :P *sigh* we're ok with it now, I've learned to control it and he's learned to control his jealousy as well. 

I do truly honestly hope that we will be that lucky high school couple that will stay together. I hope that in the future we will be able to settle down and have children. I know it's silly to even be thinking of it, after all I'm only 17 1/2. But I really do feel that I can be with him for the rest of my life. I accept him for who he is and I know I won't regret it. Love....is such a powerful thing...it can make one the happiest person in the world....but it can also make one the saddest person in the world. Only time can tell.....